It was a hot, humid and stifling day.
I was looking forward to getting off at the next station to escape the crowded, suffocating train carriage. Rush hour in Sydney is not often pleasant, but we try.
A yellow ladybug had been keeping me entertained for the ride, casually strolling up and down the handle of my black umbrella, completely oblivious to the fact that the rest of us are struggling to breathe due to the heat and lack of personal space. A whole umbrella handle to herself; I’m jealous.
The train pulls into the station; I gather my things carefully as to not to disturb my new friend or elbow my neighbourly human in the gut.
‘This station is Town Hall. Please mind the gap when stepping onto the platform’.
The train doors open – waves of passengers alight. I let them take me with them in their flow.
I glance down, looking to catch a glimpse of my pretty little new friend to see how she’s coping with the rush hour crowd. I gasp, she’s gone. Probably couldn’t wait to get the fuck out of there and fluttered off. Or I had just inadvertently murdered a ladybug when stepping off the train.
Wondering what happened to her still keeps me up at night.